One.
“You are the house,”
she explained
while discussing
the somnambular wanderings,
dreamscape happenings,
inside of the childhood home.
Home.
I live seven walking minutes away
and never pass it.
Some say they
miss home.
I avoid it.
“You are the house,”
said Therapist in
a freezing January room,
magnified white-hot
winter rays
penetrating the lace
curtains veiling
modest sacred pulp.
(When dreaming
of wandering
through houses,
we wander
through ourselves) –
and in the house
wallpaper was
thirty layers thick,
dead aunts
sat in familiar
wingback chairs,
parents were lost
like children,
and trash piled
to the ceilings.
“You are the house”
with the dark curtains
and basement shower.
“You are the house”
with the onion layers
and fruit cellar.
“You are the house”
with the yellow bricks
and chalky mortar.
“You are the house”
with the frantic eyes
and ambiguous borders.
Five.
They always made me uneasy,
but not this one.
This time,
the house
was as it was.
No strange rooms,
no unfamiliar decor,
no temporal trash,
no cerebral symbolism,
no shaking shell of a mother –
the house
was as it was –
plus something
filtered,
something refined,
plus something
pure and peaceful,
and it was mine.
Renee Novosel
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